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got this from Ysa, Yori and Luke. :)

The Rules
Pick your birth month.
Strike out/underline anything that doesn't apply to you.
Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months.

Italicize the ones that quite apply but aren't really dominant.
Make the one that applies to you most BIGGER.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical

maa.

i am nothing but these.

arashi love letter~

teruちゃんへ

会う事も少ないし、話す事も多くはないんだけど、何かに夢中になっていないとすぐにteruちゃんのことばかり考えてしまうんだ。
こんなに誰かのことを好きになるなんて、自分が一番びっくりしてるんだ。
気が付いたら公園で、レストランで、学校でteruちゃんの姿ばかりいつも探してて、いないって分かってるんだけど変だよね。
今日の朝、見かけたときに何度も話しかけようともしたし、何度も思いを告げたいと思ったんだ…。
でも、出来なかった。
俺はもう、人を好きになってはいけない、好きになる資格なんてない。
俺はもう、幸せにはなれないんだ・・・。
だけど、どうしてもこの想いは伝えたかったから。
大野智がteruちゃんに興味あるって言ってた。
一番の親友の大野智なら、きっとteruちゃんの事、幸せにしてくれると思うんだ。
お願いが一つあるんだけどいいかな？
teruちゃんが好きな指輪、頑張って手作りで作ってみたんだ。
3月6日にお家に届くと思うから。喜んでもらえるといいんだけど・・・。
最後まで読んでくれてありがとう。

大好きだよ。二宮和也より
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krystleちゃん

krystleちゃんに初めて会ったのは道だったね。
あの時は一目ぼれでした。
krystleちゃんのその笑顔に本気でほれちゃったんだ。
今までで３回告白したんだよね。。。
でも、その度に振られちゃってさ・・・。タイミングが悪いんだよなぁ俺・・・。
俺が凄く忙しくて困ってる時にかけてくれる優しい一言、体調が悪くて苦しい時に心配してくれる心・・・。
あきらめようと思ってもkrystleちゃんのこと本気で好きになっちゃうんだ。
大野智や櫻井翔が、krystleちゃんの事を好きだって聞いちゃって、取られなくないって思って4度目の告白。。。
さすがにしつこいって思ってるよな。。。
でもいいんだ。
俺はkrystleちゃんの事を想い続けてるよ。
krystleちゃんにもらった、ブレスレットがいつまでも俺の宝物。
いつか俺に振り向いてくれる時がきてくれると信じてる。

相葉雅紀
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テルちゃんへ

ずいぶん前のことになるけど、覚えてるかな？
3年前くらいに付き合っていた相葉雅紀です。
すごく短い期間だったから俺の事を恋人だって思ってなかったかもしれないけど…
俺は、恋人だったと思ってたんだ。
すれ違いばかりで連絡をとらなくなってたのだけど、どうしてもテルちゃんに言いたい事があるから、手紙を書きました。

ゴメン。まず謝らせて。
あの頃は自分勝手で・・・わがままで・・・たくさん迷惑をかけちゃったな。
自分勝手すぎる理由で別れようと言ったり…。
少しだけど大人になった今、本当に後悔してるんだ。
本当にごめん。

そして今の俺はテルちゃんの事を、どんなに忘れようとしても、あきらめようとしても、できないんだ。
今頃になって、自分にとってテルちゃんがどれだけ大きな存在だったのかに気づいちゃって・・・。
今も変わらず…いや、あの頃よりもテルちゃんのことが大好きです。

今は櫻井翔と付き合ってるって、二宮和也に聞いた。
もし俺の事が重荷になるようだったら、すぐにこの手紙を捨てて欲しい。
そして忘れて欲しい。
でも、もし、少しでも可能性があるなら…
3月6日18時に公園で待ってる、ずっと待ってるから。

相葉雅紀より
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still no translations, coz i can't... -___-'
uwah.
got one from nino and two from my niban, fumi.
i am happy~ haha

"Upcoming Artist Newsmail" is getting kinda scary.

KANJANI8 Wahaha LE
they're laughing at me.
after the Step&Go LE at RE...
now this comes out.
LE has the photo booklet,
RE has one additional song.
tsk tsk. Johnn~~~y.....??  *whines*

and then news has it that there IS a TIME DVD.
yesh, the TIME DVD that i've been waiting for since i got my AAA + in Dome.. -__-'
there. i'm very excited to see this...!

omg.
i give up.
"savings"?
what's that? is there such a thing?

ahahahahaha

i just noticed that Ueda seems to rarely smile. is that true? /random

goodness...

test.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||| 23% Stability |||||||||||||| 53% Orderliness |||||||||||| 50% Accommodation |||||||||||| 50% Interdependence |||||||||||| 43% Intellectual |||||| 30% Mystical |||||||||||| 43% Artistic |||||||||| 36% Religious |||||||||||||| 56% Hedonism |||||||||| 36% Materialism |||||||||||| 50% Narcissism |||||| 30% Adventurousness |||||| 30% Work ethic |||||||||||| 50% Self absorbed |||||||||||||| 56% Conflict seeking |||||| 30% Need to dominate |||||| 23% Romantic |||||||||||| 43% Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63% Anti-authority |||||| 30% Wealth |||||| 30% Dependency |||||||||||||| 56% Change averse |||||||||||||||||| 76% Cautiousness |||||||||||||| 56% Individuality |||||||||| 36% Sexuality |||||| 23% Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50% Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76% Physical Fitness |||||| 24% Histrionic |||||| 30% Paranoia |||||||||||||| 56% Vanity |||||||||||| 43% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||| 56% Indie |||||||||||| 48%

Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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Stability results were medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.

Extraversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:
does not make friends easily, secretive, introverted, reclusive, observer, dislikes leadership, somewhat socially awkward, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, values solitude, solitary, avoidant, ambivalent about fitting in, not dominant, unassertive, suspicious, prudent, unadventurous, worrying, weird, intellectual, frequently second guesses self

EH? O_O

holy mother of pearl.

Step and Go. Special Cu[9]bic Box.
read about it last night from Jen's Vox.

and then today, i read from Tess' Vox about someplace in LJ where it can be bought from.
and it's $49 w/o shipping.

oh my gosh.
it would be nice to have that
i wanna have that!
but i don't have $49 to spare until Feb 4. >_>
so pa'no, iyak na lang?
haha.

Arashi survey ^^

got this from matsubunny. thank you~

1. What's the best body part of [insert Arashi member's name here]?

i can't really say which is best, 'coz i haven't seen their whole bodies (yes?) hahaha but from the best of my knowledge:
Aiba: can i say the whole body?? the hair. the smile. the eyes. xDD
Matsumoto: eyes. and the lips, omg
Nino: erm. his eyes when he smiles. his smile.
Ohno: hands, i think (he's got beautiful hands)
Sho: body. ORZ. *___*

2. If you were rejected after confessing to the one you like out of the five, who would be the first one you turn to for comfort?

let me start by saying that suppose this came true, i think i have 99% rejection rate from Nino. xD

ok, to answer the Q: i'd turn to Aiba-chan. 'cause i don't want serious talk right after. i'd just want to have fun and laugh all day first. ^^

3. If you can pick any career that'll get you as close to the boys as possible, what would it be?

Rock Star! LOL. i'd be the first girl member of Johnny's Entertainment! AHAHAHAHAHAHA

4. You accidentally called the wrong number and somehow, you got one of the boys on the other end instead! Who would be on the other end and what would be the first thing you say?

if, by some strange force of luck it was Jun: please don't get mad, yo! i know you're busy and all but it was not my fault that i called the wrong number. but since i know it now, can i call you back? AHAHAHAHA (and after that Jun will change his phone number. xDD)

5. If you were to get along with a member of one of the boys' families, who would it be and why?

Aiba's. his mom seems to be nice. and i'd love to have a taste of their cooking everyday. LOL

6. If there's any part of you that you'd like to fix for [insert Arashi member's name here], what would it be and why?

Gaming Skills. i play games, but not religiously. i don't even play online games and RPGs for fear of being addicted to them. but yeah, i think Nino is the reason why i am considering getting a PSP. (yabai!)

7. You've been dating [insert Arashi member's name here] for two months and everything's going great, but what would be the first thing that'll probably annoy you about him?

i will probably be the one who will annoy him. not by being clingy, but by being very very UNclingy. 

holay wait. they don't want clingy, right? YOSSHA~! ! !

8. If you get to learn one skill from one of the boys, what would it be and why?

drawing and dancing would be great. ^^

9. If you were to pick a location for a honeymoon with one of the boys, where would it be?

in our own home. just be creative. ^^

10. Last one, if you have kids with [insert Arashi member's name here], what would their names be?
Rikku. haha.

crying time.

today, at 7 am.. i was crying like a baby.
because of a baby movie.

i was watching Rob-B-Hood from my laptop.

now, i am a big fan of Jackie Chan movies.
in fact, i was a fan even before i learned about Japan. ha ha.
and in every film of his that i watch, i never fail to laugh/smile and be amazed.

but today, instead of laughing, i cried.
(ok, well, i laughed out loud at one part -- when i found out they were just acting out execution -- and that was because of RELIEF, more than anything..)
i cried when blood was being drawn from the baby's arm.. and he was crying so so hard, and he was being taken away from his "daddie and mommie"..

but i cried the most when Jackie was trying to revive the baby with a makeshift defibrillator.
even though it's quite impossible to have current run through your body that long, i completely believed it.
and i, in fact, cried so hard. especially since the baby has not been revived. ='(

oh well. this was a first. that's why i wrote about it.

~~~~~

another reason to cry:

YesAsia still haven't returned the money i paid for the Step&Go CDs.

before, when CDJapan and HMV were both out-of-stock, and we did not know where else to get our copy from, i saw that YesAsia had them. at that time, i was still in the process of contacting Play-Asia to see if they would sell the CD...

but i guess i/we just were too nervous that we may never be able to secure our copies, so... i ordered.
i ordered 4 copies. the other three were for Me-Ann, Barbie, and Gelai. i used my debit card.

so there. we were assured of our copies. yay!

but that night, as i was on my way to work, Me-Ann and Tna sent me a message that there are still CDJ copies that we could get from Katz. there was no contention, ORZ. we had to get one from CDJ or HMV 'coz it helps put them in Oricon.

as soon as i've confirmed with Katz, i went to YA to cancel my order.

as it turned out, it took a day to confirm the order. and then the money was already subtracted from my debit account.

i was like, O_____O

'coz i never thought they would get the money right away/before shipping out. so i hurriedly requested for the cancellation of the order. i specifically told them i used a debit card.

the YA peeps agreed to cancel, and told me that the money will be returned to me soon. alright. that was great to know.

2 days later, i still haven't received the money back. so i sent an email asking them about the approximate number of days before i can get the money back.
someone replied to me -- will take about a week ("within a week" was what he said)

so i waited for a week more. and then i still haven't got it.

so i emailed them again. and they emailed me back. now it's within 7-14 days. and told me that the BANK itself was the one putting the money on hold for them. it's like a record that on the ship date, YA is allowed to subtract the same amount.

but this is Union Bank. my online statement tells me there is NO hold amount, and the amount was SUBTRACTED, NOT HELD.

and i still haven't got the money. 14th day was 31st January. i'm still giving it some time, of course, but somehow... it's making me nervous. and restless. and stressed.

aiiiya~

~~~~~

oh well. this is turning out to be a "CRYING DAY"

i was expecting either my magazines or my CDs to arrive within this week, but here's what came instead:

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ohgodnoes. i'm screwed. >_<

hello. =)

ah. long time no post.

it's REST DAAAAY! *rawr*

that is why i am here. cause i can freely sleep later tonight. harharhar.

things that made me smile these past few days:

1. MatsuJun's face on the very first "HEY!" in Kimi no Tame ni PV. (aaah. i miss dorky Jun. DX)
2. super comfy chair at work. :D
3. Ikuta Toma's crying. ohgod he is so cute.
4. Ikuta Toma look-alike (or was it just my eyes playing tricks on me?) at work. haha.
5. Sakurai Sho. Toyota LOOK. omfg great. *__*
6. knowing that there's at least one good thing i'll be getting this week (or the next) from the mail. :D
7. listening to Sinead O'Connor's "Nothing Compares 2U" over and over (and over) again. :P
8. knowing that i still know the lyrics to 2Become1 (Spice Girls) XDDDD
9. i managed to reach home very early in the morning these past 3 days (my shift ends at 6AM, i was home by 7:15AM)
10. putting out whole playlist on shuffle and hearing a certain song again after such a long time. ^^
11. Shomiya on the first part of Nice na Kokoroiki PV.
12. CHICKEN STICKS!
13. the smell of fishballs. :D:D:D
14. the thought of going back to LB the week after next.
15. getting my tote bag and penlight! :D:D:D
16. HAIDO'S BIRTHDAY! ! ! *chu, my jrock first love~ FIRST LOVE NEVER DIES!*

and many many more. yeap. i smile easily, sometimes some people think i'm crazy coz i do so so much random smiling. especially when i'm thinking about something FANDOM RELATED. ORZ.

things that made me frown/irritated real real big time:

1. Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend (Japanese Version). OMG. i lost respect. WOW.
2. NETWORK WARS. friggin publicity and all that jazz. it's like candy: too much is so so annoying!
3. toothache. MAJOR toothache last Sunday. gawd. and that was on top of not feeling good. i felt sick then.. DDX
4. our neighbor's friggin' DOG. just a small dog but he seems to think he's a German Shepherd. makes a lot of noise when i go out for work. makes amore noise in the morning, when i reach home. very irritating, really.
5. elevator traffic. just when i was about to be late. great timing, really. O_o

ha ha.

i wonder what will happen in the next days?

ja~
time to sleep?
^____^
 

my January 25th...

it is SAKURAI-SAKURAI SHO-KUN's BIRTHDAY, ne?

but what did i do? -- i slept. the whole day.

tsk tsk tsk. i did not celebrate.

because i found out that it's not fun when you celebrate ALONE.

like what happened to me when i got the Wink Up July 2007 from the mail -- it was so so happy because the Arashi pictures were so L O V E.

but all i did was to scream silently and jump around like a maniac ALL BY MYSELF. and i decided it was not fun. ;'(

that is why, i am going to try my very very very best to attend the party this Sunday at Luke's house.

but still, i am not sure if i can go. but i sure do hope so. i want to go. b/c i miss their company. really. :D

keep the faith.

i listened to "keep the faith" today for the first time, and i was like...

O___O!!!

IT IS GOOD.

frankly, even if i had KAT-TUN mp3s since 2005 (courtesy of my friend, Tonet)... i did not really listen.

wala lang. i just noticed~